Sorry might be a little late... or is it?

Something happen during the weekend that got me panicky.. You could say that I met with a certain group of people that I used to be close with... And I must say the reception was cool... It made me think of where did it go so wrong. Something triggered my memory of a not so distant phone conversation with G (let's keep it anonymous). G had called me about a problem and asked for my opinion on A. I was of course torn since I hardly knew G, but to hear the stories and tears behind G's voice, I quickly became sympathetic. So we spent hours just talking and me divulging on some details about A. It wasn't as though I told a secret... It just might have been some stuff better left unsaid.

So my mind racing now wondering if perhaps A knew about that one conversation.

Well, dear... I know that I owe you an apology. No secrets were told, and nothing mean was said. I was just advising G as any other would. But should you find that offensive, then I'm sorry. I believe you're a good person. And whatever that G might have said, well that's between you and G.

Well there it is, my confession of a misguided call. Sometimes I mean well, but the bigger picture always escapes me till it's too late. *sigh* well, a part of living is to learn and I hope I become wiser soon.

Should.stop.gossiping.

Behave darlings, and only send out good thoughts from now on.

Muah! Nitey!

Growing up...

There's a new addition in the family... Her name is Alyssa Sophia. She a beautiful 4.58kg baby and when she makes that soft sweet sound that all babies make before they start fussing... *sigh* oh so comel! I can't wait to get to know her better... already I can imagine the two of them, Yayel and Lis Lis running around the house and causing super havoc! Hehehe...

All this just kept me thinking of how me and my siblings were when we were younger. Hmm, ok maybe not as young as Farel or Alyssa. :p Just us, maybe around 10 years or 15 years back. The fights we've had and the petty dinner table arguments. The birthday cakes and birthday dinners... and the special outings (very rare but that makes it all the more special) with just the three of us... :P My sis would be the baby, albeit a temperamental one. My fights with her will be loud and quick, but just as quickly, all will be forgotten.

A special memory? A birthday outing with them on my 17th birthday. We went to OU (hey, that was far for me since the furthest I ever went without my parents at that age was to Pyramid) to get my birthday present and watch a movie. All paid by my bro of course... they got me this cute purple spaghetti strap top from Sommerset Bay and we watched Blue Streak. It was so much fun! We laughed and just spent quality time. There's a million more special memories that I could write about... our time in Rome, the trips coming back from Malacca during my Uni days... needless to say... life has been an exciting journey and it gets even more precious having them near.

So I can't wait for the mischiefs that the baby duo will have soon... cause I know it'll be great... with a mummy as special as Meq and an uncle as awesome as Abang, the trip of growing up will be marvellous indeed!

Love you Alyssa darling... welcome to the family...

XOXO   ;)

Jakarta Trip

We as a family went on a trip to Jakarta for papa's birthday. I've been looking forward to this trip for a long time. One definite plus would be the great hotel that we would be staying... Grand Hyatt... though I would miss Mulia Hotel (stayed there on our last visit-superb!) But being at Grand Hyatt has it's perks. For one, we'll be like stepping distance from the shopping malls. :) Yeay!


Well, we got there later than the rest of the family, we missed the first outing and ice cream bonanza. We are like super crazy for Cold Stone. They serve the yummiest ever. Hehehe, then again...I just love ice cream. :) So there we are, at one of the prettiest rooms I've stayed in. Ahhh... love, love ... almost forgot to wish Papa happy birthday :P No worries, we made that up by giving him a call at his room (didn't want to disturb by just knocking at his door).

Day one started with a delicious breakfast with mama and papa. Later we decided to drop by Tanah Abang. Eerrmm, or rather I wanted to go there and the rest kind of got 'conned' into coming along. Oh dear, was that a mistake! We got stuck in a horrid traffic the whole way. I was feeling a little guilty in the end when we had to walk the rest of the way---the cars were just not moving. But I was determined to get my laces. Hehehe, and even through the awful crowd, all the girls had a super time shopping. I tried my hand at bargaining for the laces and though I knew that mummy could do better... but I managed to bring the price down. Yeay! hehehe... I can just imagine the pretty, pretty kebayas now... *dreaming*

The guys.... well, let's just say that they won't be so trusting next time. Poor papa... don't think he had much fun either. Anyhow, after all the hottiness of the market, we relaxed at Bumbu Desa. Have you heard of it? They serve Sunda cuisines and there's actually one outlet here at the Curve. If you like Sari Ratu, this restaurant is just for you with all their 'sambals' and dishes just makes you want more and more...no good for diet! :p

Lace, check... bumbu desa, check... what else...? SHOPPING! :) hehehe... the rest of the time is spent rounding up the Plaza Indonesia and Grand Indonesia. I'm telling you, even staying near is not enough time to check out all the shops...

Wish I had more time there... it's more than just all the food or shopping... it's just all that super quality time we get to spend with each other there. Even the babies are high holiday merrytune...  :) That's also the time that I get to cuddle and gomol them with them barely complaining...heheheh... love, love...

Papa was talking about another trip in December... Could it be? Oh... can't wait!

Tired... but happy...  :) well... got work tomorrow... nitey nite..  ;)

Someone's love... someone's heart...

Our anniversary is drawing near... It still feels like we just got married yesterday... That's how fast it all seems... But I'm still learning... Learning how to make his life smooth... Some things come easy, like laundry (he'll be the first to tell you how stressed I can get on this), ironing his shirts... Some takes a little effort though I'm trying sayang... Like cooking your favourite dishes... :)

Sometimes I go bonkers just trying understand him and it's so funny when we're both frustrated trying to get our way... "I want what you want.." "No... I don't mind really. What do you want" A game of trying to please each other. :p I always ask my hubby to tell me what he needs or what he wants... My only worry is that he's too giving and hides away his own needs from others. I want the best for him... For always...

One night during family dinner I finally said to him "sayang, what exactly do you like or want? You just never seem to ask for it. It's so hard for me to guess you know." He just smiled at me.

"You know why? The only thing that I really want is for you to be happy. Tue je..."

*sigh*

And then I remembered all the little things... Shopping trips full of my stuff, late night laundry (I'm so freakish abt laundry), tv channels that shows only my fav programs, him ordering all my fav dishes so that I got a tastes of everything... And many many more... All for me...

And I find myself being the luckiest person... To have his love, his heart...

I love you...

Struggles

Struggle.. Definition shows 'to fight back' or 'effort'. I would think this could also apply to everyday challenges that we go through...

Questions that filters through the mind, "Am I wanting the wrong things?" "Is it too much" Maybe it's all abt looking at the right place and wanting it at the right time.

Then again it could be that it just wasn't meant to be.

Inner struggles...

I remember someone told me 'you can't always have everything. *cliche, I know* So maybe that's the problem.

Happiness is subjective... And it's a choice of a state of mind. I have a lot to be thankful for. So am I just settling? No... It's more than that... It's acceptance and most definitely patience...

Because there's a bigger picture out there. I might not see it now, but I will. And so comes faith...

It's there... Just not here.. Yet...

One day...

My Datenite

Well the weekend zapped through like in a blink of an eye! How come the week days doesn't move that fast? Hehehe... Anyhow, had a bz weekend... I actually had 2 date nites... on sat it was a double date with my parents... Yeeessss, u read right, a date with my parents and on sun was my date with hubby darling.

My mom wanted to watch 'When in Rome' and seeing how I've promised to take her to the movies countless times before but failed due to one reason or another, I was determined to follow through this time. We planned to watch the 5 o'clock show with dinner after with the rest of the family. My mom was so cute in her excitement to watch the movies. She wanted popcorn and ice lemon tea. (Ok, noted for future viewing) She even went in super early just to watch the trailers... :) The movie was great. The right combination of funny, mushy for a perfect and relaxing saturday. Wouldn't exactly buy the dvd though. Hehhe...

Dinner was ruined since I had a mishap of forgetfulness that actually blew into a temper storm. I had actually forgotten to cancal my mini nasi lemak order for meq's party this weekend. Totally slipped my mind! So there was the problem equivalent to 25 bungkus of nasi lemak in Bangi, RM25 due to the abang... And me? I'm watching a movie in OU... Since no one was inclined to help me explain... (I'm learning that when you're in trouble, you actually count on nil help).. So I made the call and explain why I couldn't pick up the nasi... The abang was really nice .. Though I'm sure he felt like throttling me. I finally convinced him to pass me his account number so that I could pay him for his troubles and he was nice enough to send the extra food to a masjid.. Alhamdulillah... A silver lining perhaps?

Then came dinner (in my not so good mood with myself)... And alas, typical mustafarians... Everyone was late. Grrrrr.... I hate waiting! Alas, temper flew.. Is it so hard to get just a little respect? After all, I don't say bad things to you right? Hmmph! Nyways...

On my datenite with hubby we went to watch Alice in Wonderland... With all the hype, it was sadly disappointing.. The story was just... Well, full of bla to me and the plot just boring and not logical. Maybe it was from a book or something, but I definitely didn't get it :p

So my weekend was full of this and that... Tiring and sometimes boring... Highlights, movie with my parents and alone time with my hubby...

XOXO ;)

A Smile

Listening to my ipod again... Hahaha... And its playing When You Nothing At All by Ronan... And it reminds me of my sayang...

His smile just lights up my life. You know that calm feeling you get when everything is just perfect... A sunny day with a cool breeze, good music playing on the radio and birds chirping... That awesome fresh smell that tentalizes your senses... And the world seems kind and gorgeous... That's my sayang... Everything right in every way.

He tries his best to make me laugh everytime. And who am I kidding... No matter how bad my day went... All I need is him by my side... And I know that it's going to be alrite.

The first time I noticed my sayang was when he smiled. And the thoughts that zoomed in my mind was how handsome he was... Next? His eyes... My sayang has beautiful eyes... That smiles along with him... *sigh

:)