Flu bug, go away!

Hehehe...the flu bug already went away... but just a little write up on Shiya's 2nd 'unwell' incident.

The first time she was a little sick was when she got a very mild (alhamdulillah) case of the HFM..Thankfully no ulcers developed and besides a slight rash on her legs fingers, she was good as gold. The rashes have already disappeared with no scarring at all. I panicked that first night because I saw how much Yel and Lissy had suffered from their HFM incident and was so scared for my baby. Her fever that night had spiked to 30 deg but went down again the next day.

This latest incident started I guess when she met her Mama Long on Saturday. She was happy and fine (well, maybe slightly cranky due to the heat) until we finished eating at Jaring... yes, I admit that maybe it was too soon to expose her to the noisy bustle of Jaring... anyhow, she started crying loudly and practically started screaming in the car on our way back home. I searched her body for any signs of injury but found nothing. If I were alone in the car, I would have started crying myself since the sight and sound of her screaming endlessly just breaks the heart.

When we got home, I quickly stripped her of everything and gave her a bath... all the while trying to calm her (she was still screaming then)... the bath must have did it because she started to calm down, though she was still crying. I wrapped her up in her towel and cradled her close after. This must have soothed her enough until she fell asleep and slept for 2 full hours. It's still a mystery to me what happened because she was happy again when she woke up.

The next crying bout happened on Monday night when she slept her normal hour at 10pm. She woke up again periodically through the night until 6 am... crying and shouting because she was sleepy... the cause? I'm not really sure... but her body felt slightly warm and she had a runny nose in the morning. She also looked unhappy... We were on the watch to see if her temperature would spike up...but luckily, the flu ended there. Another day of slight sniffling and then she was back to her yummy self again...

Now mummy's the one sniffling with a runny nose though I don't think it's from Jellybean but from her darling cousin, Lissy Listle... hehehe... or maybe an overdose from both of them?? Well, the aqiqah is tomorrow and I have around 50 packets of bahulu to pack and ribbon-fied...  :P Taking a dose of clarinase to help my cause and hopefully this flu bug fiesta will leave the family for good... shush, shush... go play far, far away!

The greatest love of my life...

If you could only see you... through my eyes
  Your perfection... your simple sweetness
The dreams of dreams that came true
   In the miracle that is you....

Darkness lifted as dawn softly appeared
   Days flew by with your rolling and tumbling
My heart...
   Forever smiling...

What wouldn't I do?
   What wouldn't I give?
Forever is our destiny...
   Love is our company...

Your almond eyes so captivating
   Your plumpy cheeks so deliciously tempting
You are the smile and laughter that I seek
   With you, life is complete...

Love you jellybean... ! Thank you, thank you... for being here with me... :)

Her 4 months...

Shiya is my Jellybean princess... :) A little update on her royal self:

1. She tried on her first baju kurung on 5.6.11 which was given as a present from our tailor, Kak Khatijah
2. At 4 months old, she can now inch her way slightly backward... I think she meant to to in front but lifting her bum bum forward is still a work in progress  :P
3. She loves the crinkle sound of plastic and so any toys with the crinkle sound will make her go wild as she tries to grab and get a bite of it
4. Her favorite toy currently is her penguiny whom she loves to gum at his beak, and her Mr. Bee who she will chew his little feet and pull at his wings which makes a crinkly sound... hehehe poor toys!
5. She now officially loves to sleep on her tummy... so the crib is the best place for her to sleep because my lil jellybean is a sleeper who loves her space
6. Her first tantrum is last night when (since the 1 week crying fest before she turned 2 months)... she cried every 30 mins or 1 hour in her sleep and will not settle till morning... *yawn* will this go on indefinitely? Mommy's pretty scared! :p
7. She has started to recognise faces... she cries if a stranger is holding her and starts searching around for a familiar face
8. Her newest activity now is to bounce if you hold her on her feet... though she is still not strong enough yet to sit on her own... she will struggle and wiggle until you lift her on her feet...then she will smile at you with joy and start to bounce
9. Her morning ritual includes a kissing session with her Tok Ma and a private conversation with her Tok Pa

Well, that's all for now... currently waiting for the special booklet of Shiya by her Papa Long to be printed out. I had it made as a special thank you to both grandparents for being so wonderful to our little family. :) Will share the beautiful pictures later... ;)

Just a rant and a rave...

Who are you and who am I? Don't think I need to justify what I do and what I believe in...because in the end, we have choices... and I made mine... but so did you...

So who's at fault? I was not the one who chose to do and not listen.

Bye.

Outing with mummy...

I find that dressing up my baby is a joy and a definite treat. So everytime I go into a shop my mind would whirl at the many possibilities.... shall I dress her in white, yellow, pink..? Pants... leggings... skirts... dress? But so far my latest craze are shorts... I just love it! I think it makes her look so cute.. :)

She has blossomed into a healthy, yummy 4 months old in just a blink of an eye... and on 3rd June we went out together for the first time... (with her kakak along of course since mummy have to drive). First we went to the tailor's to pick up our baju kurungs...yesss, my sweetie pie was just fitted for her very first baju kurung that she will wear for her aqiqah this Saturday! It was so cute on her... the kain is a little long but I am hoping that she will still fit for the baju because it is the exact match to my baju kurung for raya..hehehe, mother daughter fiesta...;)

After that, we went to the curve to meet up with Michu who was late. We had lunch at Secret Recipe and went for a stroll looking at baby clothes where mommy went crazy and bought a gorgeous outfit for the baby shower on last Sunday which Jellybean ended up not going since she was too tired from her 2nd couz' bday party. :P She was the perfect angel and we had so much fun during our together-gether time... I can't wait for our next outing!

Our day together :)

Shiya, 5 hours before she turned 4 months!

Little footprints...

My baby's progress is like little footprints in the sand... one step after one step she makes her presence into this world known...

First it was her soft cry when she was born into this world... she learned to cry when she woke up, when she was sleepy and when she was hungry...

Then she learned what is was like to hear the voices which surrounds her... and eventually she learns what it was like to see the faces of those who loves her...

Her first words? Agoo and aboooo... making her mummy laugh and smile just thinking of her myriad of expressions... then she learned to respond to anyone who cared to listen to her chatter...

Suddenly, just sitting down and chatting is just too normal... because now she wants to sit and stand (but she can't..heheheh) so she fusses and smiles when you lift her up high... as though she was taller than anyone else...  :)

Leaving her alone, she finds ways to move herself and she begins to roll... and at the age of 3 months... she can roll onto her yummy tummy... it took awhile, but she can eventually lift her head high... and suceeded in making both mummy and daddy hoot with joy...

All these while her fingers were curled into a fists... but now... she is learning how to grab anything that is in front of her... and trying to put it into her mouth... I guess she's ready for food? Not yet sayang! :P So she is just content to gum away at her chubby fingers...

That's my baby for you... my pride and joy... my life and the heart of my soul... ;)

And so the dilemma begins...

Every mother would wish to breastfeed their child... the benefits are numerous...I won't bother writing it down as I am sure everyone knows how healthy and important a mum's milk is to their child, especially for the first 6 months when that is all they consume... milky, milky and more milky  :) in fact all the products in the market right now will not come close to what a mum can offer to her child...

But some are just not as lucky as others who has an abundance of milk until they don't quite know what to do with it...hehehe... I have a met a few at the office and some through mutual friends who has no problem giving direct or even through bottle (expressing the milk and storing). Everytime I see their full bottle, I'd be a little (or maybe a lot??) jealous... looking at my diminishing quantity does not help. Hehehe... and so comes the dilemma that I am sure some if not a lot of working mum goes through... should I continue and forge on ahead full speed (albeit low supply) and try to increase this meagre supper of my child or should I just be happy that she has received some milk for the past 3 months and 3 weeks, and stop expressing.

My mind is a swing from yes to no all for 2 weeks now. Sometimes I would be notty only express once a day (used to be 4 times a day). Total daily supply has dropped from 15oz to 12 oz...10 oz...6 oz... and now barely 3 oz... sad huh..? The drop is most probably due to the lack of discipline in my pumping time and the stress that I feel inside... at night? Well, sleepiness doesn't help to stimulate the mind to produce more.

But regardless of what I say, I must admit that the milk is still there. Even now when I am expressing only once a day I still get 3 oz... and even a little is good for my baby right? Fighting with one's conscience is troublesome and mind numbing  :P  

And I still can't answer my question... should I stop? Or better yet... can I?