Our Miracle Baby...

I remember the feeling distinctly... looking at my darling baby girl as the doctor placed her on my tummy. She was crying as the nurses cleaned the mucous from her mouth and nose. I couldn't quite trust my eyes that this beautiful baby was inside me a few seconds ago.

The strongest memory is that first touch as I touched her arm and she felt warm and real... my baby was finally here...  :) Alhamdulillah...

Arshiya Naseeka Nadine... mummy has been waiting a long time for you... Love you sweetheart... I look forward to our lifetime story to begin...

Monday 31st January 2011... a miracle was born. My sayang, my princess...

Labour Fiasco...

My baby girl was born on 31st January 2011, weighing 2.95kg... at 11.24am, Prince Court Medical Centre.

As I mentioned in my previous post, I had a full day going out with little Yelli on sat, 29th Jan. The night ended with me resting and blogging and of course.... doing my forever there laundry. Wouldn't want to get behind on that now would I... :P But this time, in my sleepiness I almost slipped on the floor! Thank God nothing happened as I was able to grab the cupboard just in time to stop myself from falling. Phew!

But sleeping was an ordeal. I had a slight backache on my right side. It hurt so much when I lie down that I almost cried and had to get down on all fours to stretch my back properly to take out the sting of the ache. Eventually I managed to settle myself to a dreamless sleep and woke up late. Surprise, surprise I found that my 'braxton hicks' was more frequent than usual today. I was a bit worried about the baby since she was passive the whole day. It didn't help that the morning had greeted me with a slight bloody discharge.

So the day was spent reading and wondering... me, trying not to worry and contemplating seeing a doctor. But it really made no sense as I was set to see my doctor the next day at 11am. In the end I just stayed home and rested. The evening was much better when I felt her moving and rolling happily around my tummy.

Hubby came home at dinner time... did I mention he went to Singapore on Sat for a concert? Hehehe... Which luckily meant he was home on Sun... because 31st Jan at 4.30am started an amazing journey...  :)

I woke up from sleep feeling different. I wasn't too worried since waking up to go to the bathroom has been the normal occurrence for months now. But somehow, something was keeping me from falling back to sleep. I decided to do some further research on labour. I was having some 'feelings' that it was not far away. Then I started feeling the mild contractions. Of course at this time I just thought I could be a false alarm and I was just feeling a more frequent and harder braxton hicks. By 5.30 I was shocked to feel a discharge... but clearly not water breaking... and the books said that it is known as a bloody show. This means that labour is coming soon... but my mind was thinking how soon? Now? Tomorrow? Do I need to go see the doctor now? I was in a dilemma on whether to go straight to the ER or just wait for my 11am appointment. Two things changed my mind... remembering the traffic situation (it takes about 40 minutes to go to KL on a normal day) and also..... my water broke around 6.30am.

I immediately woke up hubby and asked him to get ready. Luckily my hospital bag is all ready in the car. We didn't rush in the drizzly morning and took our time to get there. I guess I was still in denial and was thinking that I might have been wrong and it was all a false alarm.

We checked into the ER and they monitored the baby's heart beat and my contractions which was coming at 4 minutes apart and lasted for around 50 seconds each. According to the nurse, it was just mild... and the physical exam showed that I had only dilated to 3 cm. The 'water' that broke this morning was also just a little leak and more mucous-y. This all happened at around 8 am. Dr Seri, my doc came to see me then at 9am+ to see my progress and I was still at 3 cm but with an important progress, my water finally broke properly. I guess that's why the pain started to feel more intense and the backache almost... well, let's just say it hurt really bad.

I rode out the pain, staying out of bed and trying to grab some food as I needed it to conserve my energy. The doc had said it'll be around 4 to 6 hours till full dilation. By 10am I was looking at the clock almost crazily since the pain was getting to me and speech was almost impossible. I still insisted to stay on my feet though because lying down made the backache unbearable. The thought to take epidural came then... when after a few more hits of pain, I saw the the clock was only 10.10am! Another 5 hours of this??! That's when I looked at hubby in between pain, I told him "call the nurse, I want epidural".

So then the pain went away.... I wish! hehehehe..... before taking an epidural, there's the prepping to be done. Meaning it took a good 20 minutes just waiting for the anesthetist to start on the first injection to numb the spine area. Then there is the waiting for the epi to actually take effect which could be about 10 to 15 minutes.

The funny part was when the nurse asked me if I felt like i needed to 'push' a feeling akin to going to the bathroom. I told her that I've been having the feeling... and she was surprised and wanted to check on my progress... guess what? I was fully ready to push! At the rate the epi was taking effect, which was slow indeed, there was no time for full pain relief as they had to close it wanting me not to lose full feeling for the pushing. I was just thankful that at least I had a little dose as it managed to take the edge off the pain to get me to concentrate on the pushing part.

Pushing was... hehehe... it was definitely something. :P   I don't quite remember how many times I had to push, but it must be around 5-6 hard pushes. I remember the nurses' instruction... take a deep breath, hold it in... and push! Don't exhale mid-way... (which I did the first time), and don't make a sound which makes the pushing weak (which I did the second time). Not quite believing that it's over, I heard the doctor say... she's out... the baby's out... and there staring in front of me... my darling baby girl.

My Baby... as promised...

Here's some pictures of my sweet baby as I had promised earlier... these pictures are very precious as I had only managed to see 'her' twice in the whole 3 term of my pregnancy  :P She's a shy one... enjoy! Muah!

Baby loves to sleep... zzzzz....  :)

Wonder who she resembles...? Me?? Looks like my nose there..hehehe

Pregnancy Updates

Wow, time really flies... it feels like only yesterday i was updating on my pregnancy and suddenly now I am a few weeks shy of giving birth! :) I'm currently in my 37th week and at this stage:

• Darling baby stretches a lot in my tummy, think she's trying to find her place in an ever smaller environment...though I must say that my tummy has ballooned to an extra-ordinary size! hehehe.... in other words it's very very round...
• In our last check-up baby showed to be petite and, Alhamdulillah, light (2.6-2.9kg). I was a bit scared that her weight might be over 3kg due to my sister's pregnancy history, and let's admit it... I haven't been taking care of my sugar in-take despite my borderline case to high sugar level. My next check-up us next week and I'm really hoping that by then the baby's growth is still maintained at normal and that she's properly engaged. Insyallah...
• She's been hiccuping a lot lately... and last week during the eve of my birthday, my mum and SIL was able to feel her hiccuping away! hehehe... now 4 people besides me has felt her moving. :)  She's such a shy baby, only moves at night when there's only mummy, and sometimes daddy... tsk tsk...  :)
• I have to refrain myself from getting baby more clothes as she already has a huge collection for 0-3 months. I guess I went overboard with the shopping... not to mention the lovely gifts from friends! I realised this when I was busy doing her laundry the other week. Though if I were to think about it, baby is lacking in new born clothes... hmmm.... :P
• We finally set up the crib in Kajang and I finally started on laundry for the clothes and what nots there. Not much to be done since most of the stuff are in Subang. Afterall, I'll be finishing my pantang in Subang. I'll just pack her clothes when it's time to go to Kajang later. Afraid that if I leave off any clothes there, then I might forget it and she might not fit it anymore.
• At this stage I have felt braxton-hicks. The funny part is that I didn't even know what it was until the doc told me! All this while I thought it was just baby stretching out in my tummy. Hehehehe..... my whole tummy hardens and I'm thinking... wow, is this how it's going to be like when the contraction starts?? And no, I'm not that naive to think the real ones wouldn't hurt  :P
• Restless nights? yesss..... I still do wake up a lot during the night time. Mainly to go to the bathroom and sometimes when I need to change my position. But lately I've also been restless during bedtime due to my emotional elmo-eey self  :P Somehow I think I super sensitive and gets upset easily. When this happens, it usually plagues my mind till I can't seem to sleep well. Being a person who loves to get a good night's sleep, this would of course mean me being a grouchy bear the next morning! grrr.... heheheh
• Oh! My fingers also hurts... I'm not sure what's the reason for this. At this stage, I've started retaining water and my feet and fingers are bloated to the max! That could actually be the cause of the pain in my fingers. Everytime I try to clench in fists, it feels bloaty and the joints hurts. Need to remember to ask the doc if that's normal. Haven't heard of anyone feeling like that.

Ok... I think that's long enough for this entry... :)  Praying that everything turns out well... until later... hugs... ! Muah!

All 3 pregnant ladies... with me and my bff having EDD diff of 2 days!

Emotional Elmo

I think our days are filled with different feelings, and I guess today is just one of those days that gets to me in so many levels. It could be a real emotional dissatisfaction or could just be that pregnancy homrmone roller coaster that's hitting me bad since I'm already nearing the end of my thrid trimester. Yes, darlings I entered my 8th month (34th week).

So what's up with my emotional self? Actually the question should be where do I begin?

Hmm... I actually don't know where to begin. Too many stuff bugging my mind from my pending labour, house issue, maid issue, responsibility issue, insecurities issues.... see what I mean? Suffice to say that my heart feels heavy today. Don't really know if I can do anything about it. Don't even know if there's a way I can reach out for help or even what help I need. But I definitely feel like crawling into bed and just ignoring all my carzy feelings and thoughts.

Well, better sign off before I start to write nonsense and regret it later.

I'll find my way... muah...

Glucose Test

Yesterday my bff and I had to go for the glucose test. Not that our babies or our weight were showing signs of alarming rapid weight gain... but mainly due to our family history with diabetes. Hearing lots of horror stories about the dreaded glucose drink, I was a bit nervous. Well, who wouldn't be if even drinking iced tea or apple juice can cause you to have horrid nausea... (both used to be my all time fav... now.... erm, no thanx! :p  )

Nyhow, the day started early as we needed to get there by 9am. Blood pressure and weight checked... (eek! gained another 2.2kg!)... took a blood sample... and then.... the yummy drink...  :) hehehehe

What does it taste like? Very, very, very sweet..... actually for the first half of the cup... it wasn't so bad. Blame it on my sweet tooth. But by the second half, it was harder to swallow since my throat was starting to burn from the sweetness... but i managed to finish it. That was never the actual fear or problem. The harder part was of course keeping it down for the next 2 hours! And there were times when I felt it might be impossible... :P

Hehehe... so much drama over a drink. Safe to say that we both made it through, had a super lunch and ODed on gossips... with normal results for the blood test... Alhamdulillah...

As for darling baby... she's growing well and actively moving which makes mummy grateful and happy. Annnnddd... after 32 weeks of waiting.... I was finally able to catch a glimpse of my sweetheart's face... hehehe... always keeping it a secret. I guess she's shy and didn't want anyone else to see (was alone to see the doc at 4pm). Such a beautiful baby of mine! hehehe..... a little chublette with mummy's nose! hehehehe... :D

Sigh... can't wait to gomol you!

Will try and upload an image soon... hehehe... muah!

Stroller, stroller...

After months of searching and much contemplation of one brand to another... We finally found a perfect stroller for our princess! :) the color is dusty and dark rose pink combo. The best part is that for the first 6 months, the baby can use the bassinet. I've always loved strollers with bassinet.

This just proves that patience pays off... I'm so glas we didn't get the peg perego or blue graco stroller or even the purple combi stroller... Came very close to making a purchase... But somehow, there was always something holding me back... Either the basket, or color or just plain price... In the end we found the perfect combo.

I was also wonderfully surprised from my mum when she told me that the stroller is a present from my parents to baby darling... :D

Hehehe... Thank u che and tok dad!! Lots of kisses and hugs from baby... Muah!

31st Week

Pregnancy is a joy... at the same time, it is also brings to light new behavioural patterns that sometimes you're just not that proud of. That would be my definition of my pregnant state. :)

At 31 weeks:

• I still get nauseous especially in the morning and after my evening meal. Food tastes better compared to the first 5 months, but after eating I often wished I didn't because the after taste of the food would hit me then and keep me feeling yucky for quite some time... what could make it better? Nothing... not even sweets... cos sweets have an after taste too!
• The baby stretches a lot... more than she wiggles or kicks... and sometimes I need to soothe her gently back into place. I guess my tummy needs to grow bigger to accommodate her larger size...hehehe... But every stretch and every kick and wiggle makes me smile and sometimes I even laugh by myself cos I love it when she does it. The movements let me know that she's doing well.
• I've only experienced 1 episode of her hiccuping in my tummy. It was so cute that I wanted to take a vid of my jumping tummy. But unfortunately the vid's quality wasn't any good due to the poor lighting. Poor daddy was out that time and couldn't see his daughter's cute movement.
• My tummy is getting really heavy nowadays... walking seems to be a trial and sometimes just standing up, my lowwer tummy aches with the weight of the baby bump. It's been especially hard these last few days.
• My lazy symptom of pregnancy... meaning too lazy to go out, too lazy to clean up and too lazy to cook/bake... it's all still there (could it be pregnancy or could it be the real me?? :P  )
• Shopping spree mode has sort of ended for me. I realised that clothes-wise I have more than enough to last for at least the first month at least... I've also bought all the essential items baby might need for the first few weeks like bottles, steriliser, baby monitor, cot, blankies, mittens and socks... The rest, like cute dresses and tops or extra mittens... I can always shop later after my 30/45 days of pantang. It'll be more fun that way since I will actually know her actual size. :)
• Room is Kajang is sadly still not ready for baby dear... some of the knick knacks are just hard to find a place to keep it. So there it is on the table, an eyesore till I find a place to dump it. Until then, we can't move in the cot. Even the wardrobe in IKEA is still unavailable due to some of the parts are sold out. Hopefully we could finally purchase the set this weekend!
• Room is Subang? Almost ready... just a few things needed to spruce it up and of course the multitude of laundry needed to be done... but that's all in January's list. :)

So there it is...my lengthy update on what's up and about at 31 weeks   :)

My next check will by on Tues and sure to be trial as I need to go for a glucose test. Hope I can keep it all in and hopefully the results will be good. Insyallah...

Tea Party for Baby and Mommy

Well, I think I've mentioned a few times that I love surprises (as long as they are good and happy ones that is). But being the person who loves planning parties, I wasn't putting much hope on any parties being done for me. For one, I have limited close friends... and two, well... who's gonna be the planner and decorator?? :P When I got pregnant, funny how the first people to point this out to me were my parents... as they shook their heads and smiled.

Then came the surprising announcement from my sister one fine day while we're having lunch with the chickies... "oh, my sis punya baby shower nanti 2nd week of December". Hahahaha...big laugh there... now THAT was a surprise. :p But of course she was laughing and saying she's scared I wouldn't like the deco or the theme. And I told her... "please don't tell me... I want it to be a surprise".

And so came the days and weeks where information was eventually leaked out to me... hehehe, little by little... the funniest would be from my parents of course! My mum came to me the week before the bash and insists that the date be changed to when she's around... -big laugh- I told her again and again I didn't know anything and just to talk to my sister... then came the call just as I was about to step out the house on my way to the bash (of course on the pretense of having late lunch with hubby)... my dad... he wanted to know when I was going for the function... heheheheh... I kept on saying that I didn't know and he kept on insisting to know if I was on my way to 'the house'...  :P

So I must admit that the surprise bash wasn't really a surprise... but what surprised me.... that everything else... was PERFECT... :)  Always a big fan of perfect settings... my sister did a really beautiful job on the deco... the theme was Tea Party... there were gorgeous flowers... even cut out ones on the wall... complete with a sash that said "mum to be" for me! :)  We had plenty of yummy food arranging from savoury pastries to sweet and yummy cuppies... All the people that was supposed to be there.... were there...

A special note needed to be made about the doorgifts... my sis had managed to make a personalised bag, complete with a personalised tea bag with yummy smelling soaps and potpourri... hehehe... love it so much! Oh and balloons... a must at any parties... :D

I had so much fun that day! Now is it a wonder why I love my sister so much? She has always made my special days, special for me...

Love you meqqy! Thank you for the wonderful surprise... you really know me... hugs!

The Nanny Search

It is times like these when you find out who is really dependable and sweetly helpful. Why? Because it is not easy to get help from anyone... and I mean anyone... be it friends, family or colleagues. Well, if it's hard to weedle out info from your family and friends, can you just imagine what it'll take to get info from strangers?

And so begins my rocky journey in trying to find a nanny for my darling princess. I foresee myself being a paranoid mummy, and it shows in the way I try and select my nanny. After all, I won't be home to supervise her from morning till evening! :(  So it must be a trustworthy lady and even then, I will have to closely observe her later.

My initial idea was to try and do it the economical way. Meaning trying to arrange the selection from Indon (since it's so hard to get an English speaking Cambodian) myself and doing the immigration part here directly. The tricky part would be to identify the maid in Indon itself as I don't really know anyone who can help me find a good and dependable person there. Hmm... it's not like I can just agree to anything and anyone. A couple of people actually managed to pass me numbers to agencies over there, but again I felt as though I was heading for a dead end. My mind is dizzy with unanswered questions and insecurities because let's face it... I could be lied to by these people and I wouldn't know it. That is  how gullible I am. Sigh...

So next was to explore the agencies over here and I was able to get 3 numbers from my in-laws. One didn't bother to return my call and the other 2 was different in 2 ways... information I was getting and the price tag. The first agency had a cheaper price tag... a diff of arnd RM2,400! But my chit chat didn't turn out so well. They couldn't really assure me that the maid would be coming on time (around Jan/Feb would be ideal). No real explanation was given on how to proceed or the procedures involved in obtaining the maid from Indon. Soooo... I was left with more questions and uncertainties. This agency was used by my BIL and the maid had arrived late..plus.... heard that should they wish to replace this current maid (they're not that happy with her), they wanted to use a different agency. Now my confidence in this agency is really shot down.

The second agency had a hefty price tag. My mind still struggles to accept that we would have to pay that much. Honestly I am still trying to reconcile myself to the thought. But the major difference was the information given was so much and reassuring. The agent really follows up with me and though I would ask the same questions, I will always get and answer. The best part is that the maid is set to arrive either end of this month, or early next month... which is just perfect as it's better to be early than late.

So there you go... my headache for the past couple of months. Tugging and bothering people to answer my text and questions... even to the point of calling them for help... and of course, the constant computation in my head for benefit vs costs... My big fear? Being swindled by these people whom I've never dealt with before.

Some part of me wish I could go whining to my parents to please help me... but I am 27 years old and I guess the good decisions and the bad ones will have to come straight from me.

I just hope this search will be over soon and that we find a good and dependable nanny/maid for my darling... hopefully, hopefully...

Insyallah...

Me, my baby & I...

My baby is now 28 weeks old, just shy of 2 weeks from my thrid trimester. I had my check up a couple of days ago and the doc confirmed again that it's a girl. :) I've been a bit restless that the verdict might change. Don't get me wrong... boy or girl, my love is still the same... but I HAVE been shopping non-stop and since pink is my fav color..... well, you can just imagine all the stuff that I've bought :P

Anyhow, my baby moves a lot now... kicking and stretching away. Makes me really happy knowing she's active and happy inside my tummy. According to the doc, she's 1.13 kg and has good growth. Alhamdulillah.

We still couldn't see her face though...heheheh, she's keeping it a secret and I guess planning to surprise us later during delivery. Maybe she gets it that her mummy loves surprises! :D But we got a clear view of her beautiful fingers that she kept in front of her face the whole time. Hmm... now that reminds me of her Aunty Chu! :P

At this stage, sleeping and resting (even sitting still in a car) is very tiresome. I feel like there's something pressed against my stomach and comfortable breathing feels hard... so if you're near me, you'll probably hear me sigh a lot. Heheheh, even the doc laughed at me... "anis, this is only 28 weeks!" hehehehe... as my bff said, me the drama queen.... but I do get tired a lot lately, especially since I cant sleep straight through the night anymore. I think I wake up 3-4 times just to go to the bathroom! tsk tsk tsk...

Ok, now some tidbits on shopping project... the year end sale has officially started in Malaysia (causing my hubby's frown this morning when I told him :p  ) Haven't had the time to survey the shops yet, so am not sure if the sales are any good. But most definitely I want to visit Ikea soon to check if Baby's wardrobe is there yet. Bad strategy though going shopping at the end of the month (hmm... maybe should wait till mid Dec) cos everyone will be shopping as they just got their salaries. Another hunting item on my list? That comel kitty cat teddy that I saw in Monthercare. It was gone when I went there to get it! :(  so now my mission is to find it in other outlets..... it's crazy I know... but it's soooo cute... gotta have it... for baby that is... hehehe :P

Raya Aidilfitri 2010

It's been months since Hari Raya... but here I'd just like to post a short entry on that day and some fav pics of mine... :)

Raya started at Kajang house this year... promised hubby to spend the morning with mama and papa bersalam-salaman... He was sweetly excited in the morning... after Prayers, we gathered in his parents room to ask for forgiveness and just celebrate Hari Raya together with Along, Kak Liyana and Andy. Sadly, the family wasn't complete this year since Angah, Kak Ir and Ilhan went back to Sandakan to spend the raya there.

After that we went to my parents house in Subang for the remainder of the day. Though my stomach was already full, I can't resist sampling some rendang and nasi impit (my fav raya food) while we waited for the ever late Meqy and her entourage. Anyhow, here's some of my fav pics for this year's raya...

That's me and naz holding on to my tummy and our precious 3 months baby :) Where's abang u might ask? Well, he's the cameraman! :P

Pressies for Little Baby Shiya

I was talking to my bff the other day and she made a nice point, what should she get for darling baby since I've been on such a shopping craze for the past few weeks?? :P

And as promised, I am making a short list of what I still need... :)

1. changing mat
2. matching mittens and socks
3. fitted sheets (52"x28")
4. diaper bag
5. gorgeous hooded towels (dunno why I'm obsessed with this :P  )
6. baby rocker
7. Utility box from Mothercare (not sure what it's really called... but can be used to put all the little stuff neatly inside.
8. Sleepsuits from Mothercare (3-6months)
9. gorgeous receiving blankies
10. matching top and pants (pants that covers the whole feet)
11. cute kitty stuffed toy from Mothercare (I think mommy wants this more)
12. dresses



Well, that's what I can think of at the top of my head... heheheh... for now, shopping mode has stopped while I clean away at the cobwebs and mountains of stuff that is my room in Kajang. It's already looking better already. I found a couple dozens of clothes to give away... (poor hubby had no choice but to give in) and threw away some few kgs of old paperworks. Seriously I feel liberated and lighter just thinking about it. Now there's just clumps of messiness that I need to sort out and somehow find a little space for it.

Hopefully the wardrobe that we saw in IKEA will be available soon. It's all white (which matches her crib) with two pink doors... ahh, perfecto for my Princess, though the price was a little higher than what I had budgeted for. :)

Me at 6 months and 2 weeks... :)

Outing with the chickies for Tinie's Birthday

Hmmm... think I look more chubby than pregnant  :P

Shopping Galore

Hi, I'm Anis... and I'm a shopaholic.

Those who are close to me would know what a shopping nut I am... I get excited just browsing through items and even window shopping. Like all girls, I love pretty and new things. Hehehe.... I can just imagine hubby shaking his head! :p

One wonderful thing about shopping is the art of choosing someone a gift, be it for a birthday, wedding or just for the sake of seeing them smile. That's one of my fav pastime and I had a super time in 2009 shopping for my 3 new baby nephews!

However, this year I am having a blast! I can now shop for my beautiful princess. -big smiles- This mommy to be is just crazy thinking of all the cute things to get in readiness of my princess's arrival in February. In fact I've made lists after lists. Some might say, there's only so much you need. But dears, it takes a lot to plan for two houses! Yes, I will be commuting back and forth still between Subang house and Kajang house. It's gonna be tiring, but that's the only fair thing to do till our place is done in 2012. For me though, that's just the excuse I need to look for pinky pretty necessity (I already have some of Farel's stuff in Subang).

The first item i bought for darling baby is receiving blankies and rompers. I had waited till I was 6 months pregnant before actually making that first purchase. Then daddy bought her this gorgeous white crib that mommy fell in love with  :P

I've been keeping my eyes on my normal shop haunts for sales and bargains since it's so close to the year-end sale. Then I'll probably go crazy getting her all the little stuff such as mittens and socks, sleep suits etc. In fact I heard that today is the big Mothercare sale...! Can't wait! The only thing that I can't seem to make up my mind is the stroller to buy. One day I would like a compact one and the obvious choice would be Quinny and other times I would like to get a practical yet slight bulky one like my sis's uses, which is Peg-Perego. Sigh, I just can't make up my mind. Not to mention choosing just the right color... I mean it's got to be somewhat neutral for our future babies, and what if the next one is a prince? :P

For now it's definitely between Peg-Perego, Quinny or Combi...

Hmm... can't find a pic of the Combi stroller that we're considering. But we're definitely leaning towards that... it's lighter than Peg-Perego and yet has the compartments that I'm looking for...  :)

Well, that's all for now... :)

Just a lil update...

Wow, it has been so long since I last blogged. Partly due to this crazy laziness that has been bugging me and partly due to the morning (or more like all day) sickness. Everyday day and night for the past 2 months I have been feeling super nauseous and couldn't really keep anything down. I would say that eating and immediately sleeping goes hand in hand as that's the only way I could actually keep any food in my belly. But thankfully the worst seems to be over. I'm still nauseous, though I could manage it better now. Food tastes better too. Happy happy me... :)

Yesterday was my monthly checkup and I got to see my baby again. What a relief that was! :D been worried for awhile since at 4 months pregnant I'm still losing weight. In fact people can't really tell that I'm pregnant, my tummy is that flat (well flat meaning normal lemakish and not round) hehehe... But the doc seems not worried about the weight loss and the scan showed good growth. So I'm happy :)

Baby was quiet yesterday. I would say its probably cos I'm fasting. My darling is conserving energy. Hehehe... No jiggle dance like last month. Sometimes I think I feel a flutter, but can't be really super sure... Already I can't wait for the checkup!

Well that's all for now. Selamat berbuka everyone... And selamat menyambut hari merdeka ;)

Muah!

Miracle Baby

One day I was just staring out, seeing nothing really... But just reflecting on my life. What it is I am wanting, what I have and should be grateful for... And those other things that seems so unobtainable. And as I stood there silently, I thought, well only God Almighty could ever grant my most inner desire. With his blessings, it could be a reality no matter how impossible it seems. So I ended my musings with a short prayer and I remember praying for a miracle.

On 13th June, our 1 year anniversary, I woke up feeling restless. I've been feeling different and wanted to check if there's good news up ahead.

The test showed 2 lines! Really? My mind can't seem to wrap around the idea of a positive sign. I read the box twice and even took a picture, scared that the lines will just disappear as soon as I blink. Then I woke up hubby dear... He saw the 2 lines too. :)

Our miracle is here...

Alhamdulillah...